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I am down fifteen pounds since the 14th of december! Its amazing what complete and utter devastation will do for ya!!!!

And to make things worse even yet! My husband slept with me on Christmas eve…It was amazing…amazing that is, until I found out he slept with SOMEONE ELSE THE NIGHT BEFORE!!!! With NO protection! And for a lttle more excitement….Its his ex girlfriend who also happens to be a paralegal….who his helping him with our divorce….for “cheap”!!!!!!

Gonna kill that man!

How do women survive these things?!??!?!??!?

He has decided he can no longer be with me…that we are bad for eachother…my heart is broken….

On the upside, depression is doing wonders for me on the scale…I am down 6 pounds in one week…YAY!

I hope on some sick level that this continues…

Hi everyone! It has been awhile! I miss you all so much, you have no idea….

Life has been crazy….but I am back and desperatley need help and motivation…I have put about 10 pounds back on and am devastated! I need to get back in the game and you girls were the ones to keep me going! If anyone has anything to say, I would love to hear it!!!! Thanks all!

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To whom it may concern,

I have a confession I must make…I have a small obsession with my scale…yes..it’s true. You think to yourself, “It could never happen to me…” and then BAM! It does! I was weighing myself 5-8 times a day ladies….Sad, huh?? I have heard of this happening to other people….but, oh no, never to me! So, one day there was an intervention, one of my close girlfriends came and took my precious scale away…I have been bewildered and lost ever since…not quite sure how I am going to make it….through…the…day…..

OK, fine! Enough of the dramatics! All of what I said up there is true! I was freaking myself out and doing NO good, so my girlfriend had had enough and came and snatched it! It’s for the best I tell myself! Ha! The point of my story is this…I am part of the Fitness Fanatic’s and part of that is weighing in, well, I won’t be able to do so for about 2 weeks! I am sorry everyone! I will be posting my same weight last time I checked which is 197 for the next 14 days or so. Hopefully there will be a nice change when she let’s me use MY damn scale again! Brat! Hope no one is too upset! Good luck to everyone involved!

Well, here goes. Must BLOG! See the problem is, is I love to blog, but I get scared like “what should I write ???” and all that Jazz…. I know that’s not really an excuse not to blog. I love what comes out of blogging, if only I do it. Let’s talk Fitness Fanatic’s…anyone interested? Who knows whats going on or what to expect? Because I certainly DON’T! I am all about becoming a team and trying to be a part of something-but- I am NOT competitive at all. Nor really have a clue what to do. I did meet my motivational partner, Crystal, who seems fantastic! She is on her game everyone! So maybe she can kinda help guide clueless ‘ole me through this…..good luck to her! hahah!

Well, hello out there to all of you shrinking women! I hope everyone who reads this is doing well. I have been avoiding blogging for some unknown reason…Probably because I haven’t had the best attitude lately. I have been exercising like a craaaaazzzzzy woman and the numbers on that scale just refuse to cooperate. Damn scale! My husband hears me in there every morning for the last week just giving that scale a piece of my mind! I know, that it is probably a muscle gain thing, but I could care less! I want those freaking numbers to start diminishing!!!!!! Now! (stomping my feet over here!!!) On the up side of things I am getting a boost of self confidence for some mysterious reason…A couple girlfriends and I all took our kids to the local swim center out here and there are these huge water slides that I always avoid because I am FAR TOO FAT for anything like that. Well, today I wanted to slide!! I mean, I really wanted to slide! I didn’t care what anyone thought, I just wanted to tear it up! (It’s the old me coming out!) I wasn’t able to go because all the kids started getting a tad bit on the cranky side, but next time, I am all over it! It was a breath of fresh air to know that I still have that carefree part of me still buried inside all this blubber, just aching to get out! Finally!

Today was a great day! I cant believe that I am actually already losing weight! Whoohoo!!

It is unreal!

I was finally able to go to the store and buy things that weren’t complete garbage…is everyone’s house like that? Like, when you start dieting your like “Holy crap! I have NOTHING to eat!” Because your diet doesn’t include doritos and donuts and ice cream…which seems a bit unfair, but hey, I don’t make the rules.

Anyway, I bought so much fun stuff! I found zero point soups (weight watchers) and yummy fruits and….oh….it’s so exciting right now! I cant believe how amped up I am about it! The women here give me so much enthusiasm and drive. I feel like I have everyone pushing for me and I feel like I can maybe help someone too…I am so bordering on CHEESY! Sorry, I am just really touched and excited! Tahnk you to everyone who reads my blogs and takes the time to leave a comment! I really appreciate it!

I dont know if anyone else has this problem but, I found myself REALLY searching for photographs of myself….who would think that I would actually ever be doing this….

I am the type (the fat type) that likes to stay BEHIND the camera. Not in front. So, I am trying to find pictures of myself to put on here…and guess what NOTHIN’!!!!

So frustrating. I decided that I would just go for it and take some horrendous pictures of myself for all of you to see….Hope you enjoy!

So. Day 2. No success. Bad. I went to my girlfriends house and we layed in bed while the kids napped and ate dibs (knock-off bon-bons) and I didn’t exercise a bit. I must say that I am not off to a great start.

Really wish that I could make a change. I know that I have it in me, but where?

I am a classic lazy over eater, how on earth did this all happen? Was I like this before children? Or maybe I was too active to notice? Have I really slowed down that much?? Maybe its just having 2 children young…or maybe….really who knows???

You know what I do know though…I have started to snore! Is that a fatty thing or what??I am only 25! I have never snored before. What gives? I just keep getting sexier and sexier! Do the rest of you who have weight problems have normal sex lives? I just have to know. Because all I know is that even though my honey and I have sex, it can be really hard to get in tricky positions….fun ones…ones you would really love to give a shot but realize that as a fatty, you just simply don’t bend that way!! What can ya do??

I really have no clue where the hell to start. I am totally confused by this whole website. I am really baffled. I am sure I will get the hang of it though.

If anyone out there has any suggestions on how to navigate properly please let me know.

I am looking to change my life and live. I havent been healthy for about 6 years.

Since I got pregnant with my first child. That was really the last time I felt free. Free to camp and thro on a bathing suit. Free to go hiking with out feeling like I am going to die!

The last time a life vest fit me properly. I am 215 pounds at 5′3″. I cant believe it! How did this happen?

Wow…..